i'm all about them, words.
Friday, October 06, 2006
- 11:30 PM
layer upon layer
now how do i blog without having to reveal anything.
you'd probably first ask,
what's the point of blogging if i want to conceal what i wanna blog.
well, i guess it's for personal expression.
getting thoughts off my mind and onto the screen.
it's amazing sometimes
to know that no one knows what you mean,
but you yourself have full understanding of what you want to convey.
maybe someday someone can break what i blog down.
reminds me of the lyrics from 'the kill'.
come break me down.
i wouldn't reveal my thoughts for a penny,
nor for the entire world's money.
you've gotta earn it.
haha.
what the hell.
i'm so spewing crap.
i still can't find a way to express what i want to say
without making it obvious.
let's just say i want to be freed.
freed from something i cannot seem to shake off.
gosh. i'm wondering why some part of my mind
just keeps seeing my life's secrets as cups filled with water.
what an imagery.
i guess there isn't much meaning.
only perhaps that when it spills,
it makes a mess.
and i think if this cup spills,
it'll create quite a big mess.
i wanna leave.
it's not my place anymore.
i feel apart, not a part.
i don't want freedom to,
i want freedom from.
the rationale for wanting to be freed so badly?
i guess it's cos i can't stand the attitude anymore.
the behaviour... just a big turn off. (not sexually of course)
i finally feel misplaced,
i'm not part of that supposedly big jigsaw puzzle of yours,
so i guess i'll just f*** off.
i want to say goodbye to all that,
but i just don't know how.
that's gonna be quite a big dilemma.
perhaps i should just get cut.
false fronts galore.
broken pieces of a broken memory,
consider me a fallen angel.
that's if i was ever an angel.
that's me in the corner.
that's me in the spotlight.
losing my religion.
on a lighter note, today was a good day i guess.
shan't go in detail.
not until i am freed.
haha.
they're all inter-linked somehow i guess.