i'm all about them, words.
Monday, September 11, 2006
- 10:30 PM
fading into the
don't want this to end up in nothing.
just today, desmond put my ipod nano on shuffle.
one day i'll fly away.
leave all this to yesterday.
walking into island creamery.
i'll be your crying shoulder.
i'll be love's suicide.
i'll be better when i'm older.
i'll be the greatest fan of your life.
recognizable songs.
i guess after much thought, i finally see things more clearly.
still, i don't want this to end.
i've been brought up to such a level,
wouldn't want to fall all the way down.
just when i began opening up
for the first time in my life.
what happens on the outside doesnt matter to me i guess.
after all, it's what goes on within that determines everything.
well, at least for me it is.
despite all the external happenings,
i guess i still see the same person,
and i hope i'd stay the same person.
missing all those times.
life is turning into a memory.
tear my heart open,
just to feel.
on another note, i've just made friends with the tofu man.
or at least that's what my classmates call him.
evil shits. =P
quite a nice guy.
oh yes, i need to see michael tan.
cos i didn't go to school on thursday the week before.
now to start learning from justin. blog the justin style. why is it that teachers' day celebrations had to be on the friday a week before the actual teachers' day. when every other school has teachers' day on thursday. and because of that, the extremely loyal students just have to return to their alma mater regardless of the consequences. and michael tan requested for those who were absent on thursday to meet him at 2pm. the thing is, he wasn't at his office at 2pm. went back at 2:15 to check it out, but he still wasn't there. am i at fault if i didn't get to see him today? the blame better not be pushed onto me. don't feel like blogging about this anymore. don't wanna sound like i'm ranting, although i think i might already sound so. rahh! =P
singing national anthem tomorrow. oh man. no mood to sing. seriously.
and i don't wanna get scolded by jek suan.
i think i need to cut my hair,
but it's too late now.
i'm amazed at myself sometimes.
how i manage to switch mindsets to quickly.
how i manage to view people differently, to my liking.
but at the same time, i hate it.
it just makes my feelings to fake sometimes.
that's how i detach i guess.
maybe that explains why i hate detaching.
but then again, i guess i can do it extremely well.
learning how to accept kinda helped as well i guess.
this is some warped mindset you might think.
i guess that's me.
waiting.