i'm all about them, words.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
- 11:30 PM
epileptic emotions
never really wanted to push the previous entry down.
cos it means a lot.
meant for someone who means a lot.
it's the 100th entry.
it's full of word plays.
plays a lot on my emotions.
emotes me.
two days ago.
the third cup was spilled.
for better or for worse.
i let out those feelings.
feelings kept in the deepest recesses of my heart.
some part of me felt a huge sense of relief.
another part has been left hanging.
questioning.
what happens next?
i guess sometimes it's more than just knowing a situation or feeling,
more than just knowing what to expect,
more than just knowing how to react.
different situations, different people,
entails whole different outcomes,
whole different experiences thereafter.
even though i'm still questioning,
the relief is gone.
today was more of a messed up day.
i'm left at a loss.
i'm still questioning,
what happens next?
but in addition,
what's happening?
or perhaps,
what just happened?
your idea of logic.
there has to be reason.
what's the reason for the solitude?
what's the reason for the inner weather forecast?
i wouldn't know.
sometimes i really can't believe myself.
how much things can affect me.
the lack of communication bothers me.
then again, maybe
maybe it's how small things can affect me a whole lot.
i don't know.
i don't know.