i'm all about them, words.
Thursday, August 03, 2006
- 12:40 AM
yayness! blogging from cambridge! my dorm finally has internet connection.
feeling great now that im more connected to the people back home.
well, i've just finished lit class and i'm overwhelmed. kassandra brought to my attention the apollonian and dionysian theory earlier in the year and it was put to good use in the lesson i just had. funkyness.
i wanna return to singapore with a brit accent! ahaha!
the light in the dorms are extremely dim and orange.
it's raining. boo.
dinnertime is in 15 minutes.
i'm like alone in my room, everyone else is everywhere. sadness.
here I am so alone
and there's nothing in this world I can do
gonna turn emo soon.
why am i so unaware of my emotions all of a sudden.
to me they become so surreal.
the violent eruptions of my emotions are present.
but why is it that i choose to ignore them.
i want so much to know.
yet it pains me to question.
and isnt that human, cos the questions we want to ask in life normally entails consequences.
i dont have much time left to blog i guess.
cambridge is sort of gloomy and melancholic in a way.
i just want you to know.
there are things in life i have experienced.
there are thoughts running through my head.
there are feelings erupting in this heart.
yet i fail to act.
that is so typical me.
and so sometimes i am to blame.
why does this distance maim my life?
the last cup is tipping.
it's just a matter of weeks. 2 weeks?
but then again,
im trying to impede this,
trying to prevent the obviousness.
i dont know where we are anymore.
i dont know where i am anymore.
i've lost my place.
silence once again.