i'm all about them, words.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
- 12:00 AM
why live life from dream to dream?
well, people who don't have dreams don't have much.
in the darkness, thinking.
in the silence, weeping.
maybe love is blind. maybe love blinds.
words can sway me.
it's happening to me again.
maybe cos i'm vulnerable.
i don't know why.
confused.
i want so much to shout and scream it all out.
everything is indeed out to make me lose control.
but i know i cant. not anymore.
a nice setting for heartache where emotions come last.
myself once again. silent.
i'll send you the rough draft, i'll seal it with tears.
why does my heart cry.
feelings i can't fight.
you're free to leave me but just don't deceive me.
we all have people we hate, or people we have grown to detest. the problem arises when we sometimes become the very person we hate. it seems to be happening all around. in some way or another. maybe we've not turned fully into that person, but perhaps we've picked up a few traits we had once deemed undesirable.
who i am hates who i've been?
or rather, who i am hates who i've become.
it's funny how we can apply that to most people.
investiture today. parents didnt come, cos they were overseas.
a supposedly grand event.
only grand thing about it was the presence of the archbishop.
knocks and bruises to the heart.
just don't break it.
really appreciated the concern from my class today.
just really confused right now.
messed up.
solitude of home without parents. pleasant.
it seems the harder i think, the worse this gets.
maybe i'm the villian.
dreaming has ended.
i've now realised why i keep telling myself to keep it all inside. cos it's the times when you let it all out, that you're most vulnerable. perhaps letting people know you, is like lowering your guard. and if you let the wrong people know you, you could get hurt in the end. i do not want to be emotionally scarred.
if only we could all be numb to the pains and sufferings of life.