dance my days away

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send you the rough draft
i'll seal it with tears

as i dance my days away
the time seems to come to a halt
as i turn to look away
i seal my life into a keyless vault

i'm all about them, words.

Friday, January 27, 2006
- 7:50 PM
such a feeling's comin over me

urgh. it's been a very very infuriatng day. firstly, i went for skool. while ppl in other jcs, other skools were all celebrating cny, i had lessons, gosh how fun! !#$%!#

dun wanna talk abt wad i did todae. chinese was definitely a bore, but it was time well spent for me i guess, sleeping.

aniwaes, im seriously screwed. i've developed feelings for someone i shudnt be having feelings for. oh gosh!
i'm sorry, if you're reading this, i still wanna let u noe that u arent forgotten, ur necklace is still here.
and seriously, i now feel like killing myself. i've gotta get rid of this feeling. rahh! it's so infuriating. to like a person yet try to curb that like. ok. drop the topic, let's move on to more.. happier stuff.

it's cny. whee! a time to get wealthy. yeah sure. lol. well, for some of us, it wont be a very happy cny. went to issac's mom's funeral yesterday. she passed away due to bone cancer. the mood wasnt very jovial of cos and the family was definitely in grief. i especially empathise with isaac, cos he would be living the rest of his life without a mother figure in the family. i wouldnt be able to live without my mom. as saddening as the whole situation was, there was something else that was heartwarming. to see part of our class reunite just to accompany isaac through this part of the funeral procession, and to see some ppl who haf little or no relation to isaac come together to feel for him and his family. moses, scrawny, pixiang, wei kann. i dun tink they noe isaac very well, but they still came, and it really showed the true spirit of the sji family. and that was wad was so heartwarming. we may haf went our separate ways, but when we're called, we return almost instantly. many of us just found out abt isaac's mother on that day itself, yet many of us made time to go for the funeral. it was truly uplifting and probably for isaac too, whom was pretty touched by the presence of so many josephians. todae, bro paul mentioned abt isaac's mother. i wonder why though, lol, isaac's in ac now, not cj. lol. oh well.
im pondering over the idea of liking two people at once. oh gosh.. is it even possible? it just seems so wrong to me.