send you the rough draft
i'll seal it with tears
as i dance my days away
the time seems to come to a halt
as i turn to look away
i seal my life into a keyless vault
Monday, January 01, 2007
- 12:00 AM
i'm gonna try to refrain from using the word happy. it's a new year. not necessarily a happy one though.
my new year resolution.
get good results for As.
study.
study more.
study even more.
bboy.
that's basically it.
but i think some people need new year resolutions.
and far more drastic resolutions.
council needs a new year resolution.
one along the lines of
improve communication system
stop being such a last minute bitch.
and i know i'm probably gonna get screwed when school reopens.
for not attending facils camp.
but what the heck.
7:30pm.
that's the time i was informed.
the night before!
to report the next day at what? 8am?
not too smart i suppose.
and if you're gonna tell me that everyone else managed to make it
and so i have no reason not to.
i'm gonna say that's wack.
some of my friends could make it
and they told me they heard about the camp 3 days before.
i don't see any sms telling me about the camp 3 days before.
not even 2 days before.
and some people could make it even though they were informed a day in advance.
so i still dont have a good enough reason to not make it eh.
well, for one, i have a life.
i'm not a robot that answers immediately every time you push a button.
neither am i a person that breaks promises and personal agreements
that have already been made many days in advance.
maybe some people need to ask themselves
whether it's logical or even rational to inform people of a camp a day in advance.
some parts of my life this year have been screwed up.
others parts have really been worth remembering.
and so here's a survey i got from friendster.
2006 is almost over, answer this survey to go over it.
**
IN 2006...
1. If you could give just one word for 06 what would it be?
* hot-cold
2. What are your favorite memories of 06?
* bboying
3. From 1-10 how would you rate this year?
* 1. for council life. 10 for bboying with close friends.
4. If you could change one thing about '06 what would it be?
* promos. should have studied harder.
5. If you could rewind back to one moment in 2006, what would it be?
* a few hours ago. breaking with the usual peeps. fun as hell.
FRIENDS:
1. Did you make any new friends?
* few. but it'll do. i think i can even count them on my fingers.
2. Do you think any of your friends have changed?
* yes. and don't wish to talk about it.
3. Do you still have the same friends you had in the beginning of the year?
* you win some you lose some.
4. Who would you say was your best friend overall this year?
* desmond.
5. Who are your CLOSEST friends?
* the bboys - linus, joseph, desmond, sean. ex-cca mates kian long, zhi wei.
**
LIFE:
1. Do you have any regrets for this year?
* plenty. and i dont with the rake them up.
2. Has a lot changed in your life?
* definitely. i wouldnt be thinking of bboying last year.
3. Do you think you have changed?
* maybe a bit. but there are many philosophies i still live by.
4. Do you have a New Years resolution? What is it?
* do darn well for A Levels. duh!
i'm gonna miss having many bboying sessions. school reopens = more studying less bboying. maybe only on tuesdays. farhan lessons.
goodbye 2006.
hello 2007.
i managed to refrain from using 'happy'. hopefully i can refrain from playing computer games and bboying too much next year (or rather... NOW!).
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
- 12:00 AM
i screwed up pretty badly.
lesson learnt.
never break 14 days in a row.
that's why today i took a break and went out with the usual gang.
watched eragon.
it's so... cliche.
that's what happens when you turn a fantasy novel into a movie.
and not to mention a fantasy novel written by a 16 year old.
plenty of movies to watch out for next year though.
pirates 3, spiderman 3.
we were thinking of reviving the laugh at kian blog.
especially after kian's many LAK moments as we would call it.
like... how kian tried to describe water skiing by calling it
the flying fox on water with his arms gesticulating how you would ride a motorcycle.
quite retarded.
and you know how carrefour at ps has mini packets of chips in between the inclined travellators.
kian threw the mini packets around the mid-section area where the chips were supposed to be.
one packet accidentally fell out onto the opposite side where the travellator was moving in the opposite direction.
kian ran. retard.
too many hilarious incidents today.
miss the good old days.
hopefully i can get a new laptop soon.
oooh! exciting! =P
Saturday, December 09, 2006
- 11:30 PM
ouch!
anyway. today was step it up 2006. ftc won. it was a close final battle against fuyo.
whoo. quite cool. my first step it up. and the first time i entered cyphers. scaaaary.
cypher battle against lizard and then small alex. was pretty nervous but it was exciting!
next week there's fuyo's showhand jam!
and finally, linus is back but desmond will be disappearing.
i know you got soul!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
- 9:00 PM
firstly, venue.
for one of the proms, the venue was 3 times the size of the other.
keeping in mind an approximately equal amount of people,
i think one of the prom's was a little more "action-packed"
secondly, emcee.
for one of the proms, class 95 dj rod montero was the emcee.
for the other, it was some unknown guy that talks too much.
thirdly, people.
for one of the proms, the people voted seriously for prom king and queen.
for the other, i have no idea how some of them even became nominees.
i don't even wanna mention if the winners were deserving or not.
i don't think i'm in the position to.
i can go on comparing.
food, attire, operating procedures etc.
oh well, but i guess i'm not in the position to say too much.
i guess the council did a good job for cj's grad night.
it was pretty glam considering the limitations.
most importantly, i want pics! =P
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
- 12:00 AM
at least sji-sjab has requested for my services more than a week ago. even maybe 2 or 3 weeks ago. farhan classes are on tuesdays. now that i'm working, that adds on to the night activities. usually happens on fridays and weekends. but also on wednesday for this week.
so just in case you're planning some last minute meeting or some event for me. i'm not available on weekdays 6am to 2pm (6am to 12pm on wednesdays and thursdays). not free on tuesdays and sometimes fridays. not free on weekends. so basically monday would be the best day to throw me some shit to do.
oh and the bolded 'last minute' above means like anything less than 2 days.
and for some who say i'm wasting a lot of time dancing, firstly, i'm not wasting time, secondly, i've got very little time to dance as compared to the june hols. so stop saying i'm not bothering about anything else in my life except for dancing.
ah screw i just realised thursday is grad night. and apparently we have to report at 2pm?!
shit shit shit. dilemmas dilemmas more dilemmas. never expected the hols to be so much more stressful.
anyway, i guess people would probably tell me not to talk so much if i aint got any good suggestions. well, for one i suggest that the big people up there from whatever organisation should inform everyone of meetings a lot earlier if possible. it'll also be best if there are fixed meeting dates and if there isnt anything to meet about, inform people of "no meeting" rather than "meeting tmr". that would make scheduling a lot easier for a lot of people i guess.
i've still got many many suggestions, they're all up here in my head. don't wanna spill em all out here. it'll ruin my franchise. =P
oh and some people might say that it's my responsibility to attend the meetings and all. well, here's an analogy. i don't think you'll be too happy a worker if your boss tells you on friday night you've got to come to work the next day. and if you say that's too bad it's an obligation for me. then perhaps you're right, but the problem lies in it happenning more than once.
gosh i still have got to wake up at 6:45 tmr morning for training.
i've got too many activities. dont tell me to give up dance. it's like asking me to give up money. and if you say i'm illogical, maybe in a few months time i can be earning some money dancing okay. and if you tell me to stop working, wont you be telling me to give up money as well. i'm not being materialistic here, i'm being realistic by trying to be self-sufficient during the hols so my parents dont hit the roof when my sister spends loads on clothes and when the pub bill goes up (which my mom was complaining about an hour ago.) not to mention how my family needs cash. (trying having your mom requesting money from you. doesnt sound too everyday huh.) so if you're thinking of how money faced i can get, think again please.
okay enough ranting. i can go on forever rationalising why i might seem so rebellious to certain things.
time to sleep before i collapse of exhaustion tmr. try getting home at around 2am for two nights after working for over 6 hours without water, without sitting, and with a whole lot of carrying extremely large heavy trays and shifting tables. oh well, but who am i to complain huh.
stupid schedules, stupid screwed up situations. maybe that's why i value promises much more than meetings and upholding official activities. they're all so impersonal. promises are much more personal and so much more worth upholding. screw those hectic schedules.
Monday, November 27, 2006
- 1:28 AM
you may be able to hold a glass of water easily.
but the longer you hold it the heavier it gets.
it's actually true.
try carrying a tray of glasses of soft drinks.
the first few minutes you're okay.
after that you're screwed.
hahaha! heavy shit!
well, at least i'm a little bit richer.
Sunday, November 19, 2006
- 11:00 PM
"although we cannot add days to their lives,
we can add life to their days."
beautiful.